*cries*

Oh my god, I'm so heart broken. Sungminnie *cries* I'm so worry.
Stupid dream. Stupid stupid stupid dream! *depressed*
Waking up from the dream... I'm crying... even now I'm crying... damn dream.

It must be my lack of sleep that's making me like this.. *cries*
*Sigh* AISH! get a grip of yourself!! *slaps self* *sniff sniff*

Now I at least I know how it feels to be a refugee of a world governed by alien killing humans..
Sungminnie T^T... damn this dream..
Because of this dream I'm convinced he's the perfect-boy friend for me. haha *lame*

But yeah... Maybe my friend was right... My dreams is like a TV playing drama nonstop.
Should I ask a doctor to give me pills for this to cure? Because what I hate most is emo dream.

About the dream... It's kind of weird. Minnie and I were a couple. (boyfriend/girlfriend).
Not to mention it took place in a world where it was invaded by aliens killing humans.
The human race is looking for shelter constantly. There was this part where Minnie and I were
in a Public bathroom, and suddenly one of the aliens came in with an axe. I was so scarred, I kept pulling him back to hide, but he keeps going out to peek, and then tells me he'll take care of it. GAH!! what's wrong with Minnie! So when he went to confront the alien, he took out his gun and start shooting at it. (the aliens so huge and ick... red?) the bullets didn't do much.
The alien got shot but he wasn't really dead just injured.. Just then another came in to investigate. At this point I knew we won't survive. So I drag him by the hand and told him I know a escape route. (dang it's as if I know the whole damn place) Quicky taking off before the other could see us We ran into the back of the bathroom, which has a secret route leading towards a secret elevator, it was there for the secret agent.. Don't ask me how I knew this escape route. Ask my dream. We got in, and took the elevator towards safety. We came to this old building where they were other elder people sheltering. Minnie and I met an old grandma.
I nearly cried, because she was homeless, living on the streets. Of course in this world, living in our is not even an option no more. She was sleeping near the tracks, so I went and joined her.
I offer her my jacket (which I received from another nice lady) and gave it to her. I said "Here just this as a pillow to sleep". Minnie was behind. We had this small conversation about moving to where. But don't really remember it haha. We were planning to take the train and move to a far away place... I don't know where really. It was at night.. maybe 10:45 ish? Anyway when the correct train arrived we both got in. Somehow the train turns into a train cart. Minnie & I was sitting but then Minnie went to get something so He said he'll be back. Then the stupid train decides and leave. And Minnie wasn't back yet! ARGH! so heart breaking! there were a couple of people who just looked at us. Minnie was running after the train trying to stop it, and well I didn't much but kept crying out his name =_=;;; and had some love jibberish talk I kind of forgot. But what I do remember is Minnie yelling out my name and said He'll be back so don't worry, we should meet up soon, as I just kept crying. Then shouted B-6. Wait for him at gate B-6. He stops running and I just yelled back I'll wait for him there. Weird dream ne??

But I'm worried T________T with those alien killing humans! gah! my minnie! how can I live!
sniff... stupid dream!

well now that I got this out of my chess and I'm no longer crying, though still moaning about it, I was surprised I had a suju dream. haha.. (remember when I told you I had suju dreams for every night of my life? well lol I figure a way out to stop it, but then I began to miss it haha) Yesterday I didn't get a lot of sleep. only about 3 hours. and the day before that 4 hours and so I stayed up last night too, and didn't sleep till 5 in the morning, but then I had to be waked up because of SUKIRA's loud recording, because I left KONG running, and it was 8 something in the morning. I was cranky and randomly said, man why won't a suju dream come to me. and then went back to sleep. and got this suju dream haha xD;;; <33>

My favorite is Donghae :3 Good thing donghae wasn't my bf in the dream... I probably died in my sleep, and no one won't know why. I can imagine it... "Girl die in sleep for unknown reasons", and I'll be like a ghost and haunt my parents and siblings and SUJU and blame suju for my death. Besides I see too much of donghae as my little boy <33>

well that's all for now... I manage to draw a outline of what the bathroom looked like.. maybe another journal day I'll reveal it here.

P.S
When minnie and me were outside with the grandma at night by the rail train tack, we looked up to see lots of government official fighter jet going to mission (to get rid of aliens I guess) and spotted 2 UFOs. and a lady randomly commented on us being such a sweet couple, and how strong our bond is on the train.

lols

*giggles*
I went Eunhae Hunting....
Though Hangul isn't my language, I tried to search for eunhae pics.
Because well you know... I am Eunhae Deprived..

Anywhos... I ended up saving a crap load of eunhae stuff xD;;;
I'm feeling happy? Maybe I should be shot for?

my sister said google is bad, so I should try and avoid using google
as my main search engine... well Guess what search engine I used
to search up EunHae?

Naver.com

it's in Hangul but all well, it was a successful search right?
*still slightly happy*

BTW it's 4:47 am now... =_=;; I should sleep...
But I want to stay and watch SUKIRA! ><;;; oh wait! maybe they might not be on sukira? Oh yeah.. Hollywood Bowl... Oh and I'm going to update my fic soon. Sheesh I have so many Blogs I update different comments on each blogs =_=; I should be short for... well.. talk laters! p.s I like to listen to the internet radio compared to the local radio.

.... happy mother's day.
I wish all the mothers in the world to stay healthy and strong!
Happiness ever after for you all! <3

I think I'm sick today...
My stomach hurts, and this throbbing pain in the head really annoys me.
I woke up at 4 am today to throw up =_=;
And guess what? It's raining outside too! Not my day! Did I ever tell you?
Whenever it's raining or going to rain, I always wake up late, or not want to wake up at all.
Also, my nose, has been dry lately. Today I dried blowing it out, and to only get blood =_=;
I need more fluid I guess. *sigh*
I'm bored. I want someone to play with me.

Also which reminds me. I had a rockman x dream today! I'm so happy.
I haven't had an X episode since forever! hmm.. 2002? 2003?
it's kind of nerve racking though, because I was literally playing as X!
(I'm actaully him in the dream)
and I went through these Sigma Stages. Man... the missions... so hard.
I'm supposed to get some type of Ultra Mega weapon from those bosses without dieing.
It was weird... It's like the dream told me I'd played it before and failed the mission. haha.
And this time I'm suppose to pass!

Anyways, at the ending final stages, I met up with Zero, and he helped me defeat Sigma.
=_=; Sigma was in a head form.. Kind of Creepy.

Anyways, at one point Zero kind of umm...hmm.. I don't know.. Feels like abandoning me?
xDDD;; In my head at the time I was kind of feeling like this->

"What?! leave me! Why! I'm your friend!" *goes does X2 angst*

or something like that xD;; and so yeah, since I hate alternative bad endings, I tried my best
to make a good ending so X and Zero would not separate.

Because you know, it's always like Zero dieing and X gets emo and angst and stuff haha xD;
So yeah in the end, Zero and X did have a good ending, neither of them died xD; WooT!

the angles and lightings and everything about the stages were cool. *__*!!

Ack! my stupid headache ;__; it's so annoying it hurts! well enough rambling from me today.
till then..

=_= me wants ...
me really want to visit Japan again...
omg I also want to grow out my hair...
hair must grow! Maybe I should order those Japanese Sakura Shampoos.
my hair is thinning again =_=; When I was in Japan almost 4 years ago.
My host mother gave me those shampoo so my hair would not thin out.
She was such a sweet mother. Maybe I should consider living in Japan...
Oh... About Super Junior M... wow they're really impressive.
I like them <3 I support them. But lol?
To be really liking them more than the original Super Junior group?
I think it's Lee SooMan's evil ideas! And yet everyone still falls for it =w=;;
Lee SooMan you're a genius! Did people tell you that? Yes! Of course they did!
Ah well, life is full of good and bad, deal with it dao! =_=;;

Ah, I almost forgot. Hyukkie replied to my SMS *__* <3 he's so sweet and funny?
Now if only I could get Hae to do that for me grrr... my life would be so complete!
Well not complete, but I would be happy though haha.

Dang it! I have to go. I hate being reminded...
I wish I can do whatever I want..

mystery6 <3 *lol random* toodles <3!!