Silk Cloth + The Snow

2008-07-16T03:09:00.001-05:00

=___=;;

omg sorry for not updating for awhile.
my sister's b-day is coming up!
july 20th!!

So I wish her happy birthday!
(early)
lol yeah.... school is starting agian...
=w=;;;

see you soon <3

2008-06-25T00:57:00.002-05:00

=___=;;
tired....
note much...
oh yeah.. started on a new fanfic...
L.O.S.T...

Not much...
just trying to keep updates...

2008-06-13T11:52:00.002-05:00

omg...
so much things are happening =__=;;
D: & like wtf..

okay I lied...

No not really....

okay I lied again..

things are happening but..
I'm so effing busy...

I'm just updateing to keep this journal up
to date =_=;

happy birthday to my sister on June 09th!
SJ hwaiting during dream concert!
hmmm....

I read fishy's journal!
he's so sweet.. and yeah.. =__=;
I'm to lazy now...

there's you daily update.

2008-06-04T22:54:00.002-05:00

OMG! I heard SJM kids are back in Korea now!
I'm so happy!
I must watch sukira and record it now! D:!!!
Hmm... my sickness is going away!!
My sore/ itchy throat isn't all that bad now!!
My grandma's tea medicine works like magic!
ILY granny! a long and healthy life I wish for you!
<33

I had a weird dream... hmm.. about aliens and evasion!
Kind of weird! We like have to fight them!!
and this one part where we were like in outerspace!
and them somehow the fighting turns into a deadly game!

it's so wierd! I saw some of them lost! D:!
It's like... YuGiOh's Shadow Realm game!!

really weird! And then the bad guys turned against one another
=__= that was weird! but then again...I feel sorry
because she was actaully a psycho who is a good guy!
She helped me played a deadly game! I would have lost/die!

T__T ah! enough talking about that!!
Must get back to writing my fanfic!!

2008-05-29T07:33:00.002-05:00

MUAHAHHAHA I found a bigger poster size for Mystery6!
WOot! I'm so happy! I thought I could never find it!
OMG I'm so um mad? irritated? I don't know.
But yeah anyways I saw a cut piece of mystery6's poster!
It' was huge! I want a high qulaity poster! But it was impossible to find!
the biggest I could find was 400x570!!
Argh! so piss! ah well! maybe next time? Well I reallu want the HQ one!
Because from looking at it.. I think it might be 600x800!!
it'll so nice T^T <3 ah well..
it's 7:36 in the morning now.. =_=;
I haven't slept yet...

Oh yeah... I think my sickness is getting worse... My sore throat is so bad!
It hurts! And now sore throat + itchiness!! it's madness!
I developed itchiness for my throat T___T;

I'm so bad at taking care of myself! T^T I need medicine soon!
I just took some earlier like about 40 minutes ago, but it's starting to fade!

T___T;; ah well..

Oh! I really want to sleep... but.. What about SUKIRA??? D:
I want to watch it! <3 ah well.. maybe till the day I can sleep normal again...

omg Fishy got yelled by ELF T^T <33
poor fishy I was feeling so sad T__T xD;;
Fishy himself was even disappointed haha xD;; it's so cute <3
But no matter! He didn't deserve it! anyways.. enough bragging..

talk later journal! <3

2008-05-26T12:50:00.001-05:00

sick... I think I'm sick... my throats hurts... it's sore, I can't speak loud.
lack of sleep is finally hitting me...

2008-05-19T21:15:00.003-05:00

...=__=;
emo...emo..emo
me being emo....
I hate it... Sometime I wish I wasn't born with a mouth.
...
oh... I won a poetry for semifinal... how should I edit this??

2008-05-18T23:17:00.003-05:00

it's now 11:17 evening.
just updating my fanfiction for links..
You have to be a member of the forum to view :3

Mystery6 Replayed

Prison Break

Di@gnosed

they're all eunhae related in someway..

2008-05-18T05:07:00.003-05:00

Ehhh.... I got pissy today...
well yesterday, but yeah I haven't slept so it's still consider the same day for me =_=;;

I don't know.. I guess I just got paranoid because my MSN is filled with lists of people.
But they don't even talk to me... so I deleted all of them... including to the ones I do talk..
I'm so pissy... I did kind of regret since I can't contact them.. but well.
Serves me right anyway... I dislike wasting space on my IM handles..

I'm very disappointed... it's 5:o9 am now...
I wonder when will I sleep?
Not so little sleep for me.. it's not a good health habit is it?

2008-05-17T12:49:00.002-05:00

*cries*

Oh my god, I'm so heart broken. Sungminnie *cries* I'm so worry.
Stupid dream. Stupid stupid stupid dream! *depressed*
Waking up from the dream... I'm crying... even now I'm crying... damn dream.

It must be my lack of sleep that's making me like this.. *cries*
*Sigh* AISH! get a grip of yourself!! *slaps self* *sniff sniff*

Now I at least I know how it feels to be a refugee of a world governed by alien killing humans..
Sungminnie T^T... damn this dream..
Because of this dream I'm convinced he's the perfect-boy friend for me. haha *lame*

But yeah... Maybe my friend was right... My dreams is like a TV playing drama nonstop.
Should I ask a doctor to give me pills for this to cure? Because what I hate most is emo dream.

About the dream... It's kind of weird. Minnie and I were a couple. (boyfriend/girlfriend).
Not to mention it took place in a world where it was invaded by aliens killing humans.
The human race is looking for shelter constantly. There was this part where Minnie and I were
in a Public bathroom, and suddenly one of the aliens came in with an axe. I was so scarred, I kept pulling him back to hide, but he keeps going out to peek, and then tells me he'll take care of it. GAH!! what's wrong with Minnie! So when he went to confront the alien, he took out his gun and start shooting at it. (the aliens so huge and ick... red?) the bullets didn't do much.
The alien got shot but he wasn't really dead just injured.. Just then another came in to investigate. At this point I knew we won't survive. So I drag him by the hand and told him I know a escape route. (dang it's as if I know the whole damn place) Quicky taking off before the other could see us We ran into the back of the bathroom, which has a secret route leading towards a secret elevator, it was there for the secret agent.. Don't ask me how I knew this escape route. Ask my dream. We got in, and took the elevator towards safety. We came to this old building where they were other elder people sheltering. Minnie and I met an old grandma.
I nearly cried, because she was homeless, living on the streets. Of course in this world, living in our is not even an option no more. She was sleeping near the tracks, so I went and joined her.
I offer her my jacket (which I received from another nice lady) and gave it to her. I said "Here just this as a pillow to sleep". Minnie was behind. We had this small conversation about moving to where. But don't really remember it haha. We were planning to take the train and move to a far away place... I don't know where really. It was at night.. maybe 10:45 ish? Anyway when the correct train arrived we both got in. Somehow the train turns into a train cart. Minnie & I was sitting but then Minnie went to get something so He said he'll be back. Then the stupid train decides and leave. And Minnie wasn't back yet! ARGH! so heart breaking! there were a couple of people who just looked at us. Minnie was running after the train trying to stop it, and well I didn't much but kept crying out his name =_=;;; and had some love jibberish talk I kind of forgot. But what I do remember is Minnie yelling out my name and said He'll be back so don't worry, we should meet up soon, as I just kept crying. Then shouted B-6. Wait for him at gate B-6. He stops running and I just yelled back I'll wait for him there. Weird dream ne??

But I'm worried T________T with those alien killing humans! gah! my minnie! how can I live!
sniff... stupid dream!

well now that I got this out of my chess and I'm no longer crying, though still moaning about it, I was surprised I had a suju dream. haha.. (remember when I told you I had suju dreams for every night of my life? well lol I figure a way out to stop it, but then I began to miss it haha) Yesterday I didn't get a lot of sleep. only about 3 hours. and the day before that 4 hours and so I stayed up last night too, and didn't sleep till 5 in the morning, but then I had to be waked up because of SUKIRA's loud recording, because I left KONG running, and it was 8 something in the morning. I was cranky and randomly said, man why won't a suju dream come to me. and then went back to sleep. and got this suju dream haha xD;;; <33>

My favorite is Donghae :3 Good thing donghae wasn't my bf in the dream... I probably died in my sleep, and no one won't know why. I can imagine it... "Girl die in sleep for unknown reasons", and I'll be like a ghost and haunt my parents and siblings and SUJU and blame suju for my death. Besides I see too much of donghae as my little boy <33>

well that's all for now... I manage to draw a outline of what the bathroom looked like.. maybe another journal day I'll reveal it here.

P.S
When minnie and me were outside with the grandma at night by the rail train tack, we looked up to see lots of government official fighter jet going to mission (to get rid of aliens I guess) and spotted 2 UFOs. and a lady randomly commented on us being such a sweet couple, and how strong our bond is on the train.

2008-05-14T04:44:00.003-05:00

lols

*giggles*
I went Eunhae Hunting....
Though Hangul isn't my language, I tried to search for eunhae pics.
Because well you know... I am Eunhae Deprived..

Anywhos... I ended up saving a crap load of eunhae stuff xD;;;
I'm feeling happy? Maybe I should be shot for?

my sister said google is bad, so I should try and avoid using google
as my main search engine... well Guess what search engine I used
to search up EunHae?

Naver.com

it's in Hangul but all well, it was a successful search right?
*still slightly happy*

BTW it's 4:47 am now... =_=;; I should sleep...
But I want to stay and watch SUKIRA! ><;;; oh wait! maybe they might not be on sukira? Oh yeah.. Hollywood Bowl... Oh and I'm going to update my fic soon. Sheesh I have so many Blogs I update different comments on each blogs =_=; I should be short for... well.. talk laters! p.s I like to listen to the internet radio compared to the local radio.

2008-05-11T22:32:00.002-05:00

.... happy mother's day.
I wish all the mothers in the world to stay healthy and strong!
Happiness ever after for you all! <3

2008-05-10T14:16:00.002-05:00

I think I'm sick today...
My stomach hurts, and this throbbing pain in the head really annoys me.
I woke up at 4 am today to throw up =_=;
And guess what? It's raining outside too! Not my day! Did I ever tell you?
Whenever it's raining or going to rain, I always wake up late, or not want to wake up at all.
Also, my nose, has been dry lately. Today I dried blowing it out, and to only get blood =_=;
I need more fluid I guess. *sigh*
I'm bored. I want someone to play with me.

Also which reminds me. I had a rockman x dream today! I'm so happy.
I haven't had an X episode since forever! hmm.. 2002? 2003?
it's kind of nerve racking though, because I was literally playing as X!
(I'm actaully him in the dream)
and I went through these Sigma Stages. Man... the missions... so hard.
I'm supposed to get some type of Ultra Mega weapon from those bosses without dieing.
It was weird... It's like the dream told me I'd played it before and failed the mission. haha.
And this time I'm suppose to pass!

Anyways, at the ending final stages, I met up with Zero, and he helped me defeat Sigma.
=_=; Sigma was in a head form.. Kind of Creepy.

Anyways, at one point Zero kind of umm...hmm.. I don't know.. Feels like abandoning me?
xDDD;; In my head at the time I was kind of feeling like this->

"What?! leave me! Why! I'm your friend!" *goes does X2 angst*

or something like that xD;; and so yeah, since I hate alternative bad endings, I tried my best
to make a good ending so X and Zero would not separate.

Because you know, it's always like Zero dieing and X gets emo and angst and stuff haha xD;
So yeah in the end, Zero and X did have a good ending, neither of them died xD; WooT!

the angles and lightings and everything about the stages were cool. *__*!!

Ack! my stupid headache ;__; it's so annoying it hurts! well enough rambling from me today.
till then..

2008-05-08T18:34:00.002-05:00

=_= me wants ...
me really want to visit Japan again...
omg I also want to grow out my hair...
hair must grow! Maybe I should order those Japanese Sakura Shampoos.
my hair is thinning again =_=; When I was in Japan almost 4 years ago.
My host mother gave me those shampoo so my hair would not thin out.
She was such a sweet mother. Maybe I should consider living in Japan...
Oh... About Super Junior M... wow they're really impressive.
I like them <3 I support them. But lol?
To be really liking them more than the original Super Junior group?
I think it's Lee SooMan's evil ideas! And yet everyone still falls for it =w=;;
Lee SooMan you're a genius! Did people tell you that? Yes! Of course they did!
Ah well, life is full of good and bad, deal with it dao! =_=;;

Ah, I almost forgot. Hyukkie replied to my SMS *__* <3 he's so sweet and funny?
Now if only I could get Hae to do that for me grrr... my life would be so complete!
Well not complete, but I would be happy though haha.

Dang it! I have to go. I hate being reminded...
I wish I can do whatever I want..

mystery6 <3 *lol random* toodles <3!!

2008-05-06T02:57:00.001-05:00

KRrrrr.........
I'm so tired... It's 2:58 am now.. =_=; need sleep...

2008-05-02T10:50:00.001-05:00

dreaming ....
^o^ I got to wipe away fishy's tears! or sweat <3
he's so tired ne... But still. I'm happy ne.

2008-04-30T07:22:00.002-05:00

I had a dream yesterday.. EunHae related... and today's dream was... Metal Gear Solid related?
What do they had in common? Pairings.. Hyukjae x Donghae & Snake x Meryl

Omg.. the Metal gear solid... sheesh.. I woke up with a sore body... I was like.
"damn... can't move.."
My body was so sore I lay in bed for a good deal of 10min + before I decided to get up.
It must be because I played tennis yesterday...
Oww... So sore.. my muscles hurts =_=

It was about. Snake and Meryl. Snake was outcold, and Psycho Mantis had controlled
him and try to kill Meryl, which we as the players, are playing Meryl.
I lol'd at this wacky dream.. Because in the game... It's Meryl who is outcold and controlled.
Not Snake. xD;;; And Vamp from Metal Gear Solid Sons of Liberty was in it too haha.

Anyway yeah.. it had some funny lines that are not related to the game at all.
=_= The lines were from a Fanfiction featuring Kibum and Donghae, and the suju members

(Damn you rainbowsnakes! ><; maybe I did have a good reason why I dislike you xD)
and Kibum was turning into a Vampire. lols

But it was different in my dream... Kind of funny though. It was something like this.
Vamp: Drink Meryl's blood to live.
Snake: No.
Meryl: (sitting there watching the scene)
Vamp: fine then, I'll make you!

and the he controlled Snake lol but the funny part is.. when he controlled Snake, He turned into
Psycho Mantis. hahaha XD;

And then it switch to gameplay where Meryl have to defeat Mantis from controlling Snake
=_= Aish... Such a mess upped dream. It was so hard... I kept asking my brother to help me
but he wouldn't =_=;

aish that warehouse the gameplay was set in.. lol it was a mixture of the Tank Hangar in the beginning of
MGS1 and MGS1's ending when we're fighting with Liquid..

Ahh well..

Oh and about the EunHae dream... Eh.. I can't say... It's kind of embarrassing. =_=;
lol the way donghae wears his shirt like that is hot though =w=; and Hyukkie is so cute.

Well that's all for now.. it's 7:34 am... Need to go. <3

2008-04-27T07:50:00.003-05:00

Aish... the Coldness man...

I hate it! When will it get warm?
;___; I hate having this cold weather!
It's almost summer and the it's still cold?

WTF ;__;

Oh well.. Anyways omg.. my Super Junior dreams are still on going =_=;
xD; I dreamed about Teukie hyung... I forgot what's it about though...
Man! I really should take notes down! ><;

lols.

Oh And I have three SUper Junior Fic started already >.>; xDDD;;
I plan on spamming my readers who have been waiting for weeks with lots of chapters!
haha xD <33

Do you think it's a nice gift from me? ^^

Here are the titles of the SUJU FICS

1.) Mystery6 Replayed

2.) Prison Break

3.) Diagnosed

Diagnosed is not publish online yet. xD <33 So yeah... ^^.
Anyways.. Gonna go back to typing the fics now ^^

2008-04-22T10:43:00.002-05:00

Hi guys!

I'm back! ^^;
Not much things going on lately... Besides the bad storm and all.
I got the webplayer to work, but decided to not use it ^^;

I still want an EUNHAE skin for my Winamp ><;
Oh my, April is going by so fast, it's already mid term.

I need to find myself a new job soon ^^; and do my school renewal too.
I also have so many EunHae stories I want to write, but my poor English grammar and writing skills.
Maybe I should take writing class to make me smart again? haha xD;;

Ah well. Well I'll be back soon enough until then <3.

2008-04-15T03:35:00.000-05:00

=__= I got a webplayer yay? Problem is.. i need to configure it somehow >.>;

2008-04-13T21:31:00.002-05:00

LOL omg Minna! Did you guys see?

I can't believe Zhoumi has hate fans? What did he do wrong? xD;; Poor guy!
I love Zhoumi! <3 He reminds me of Eunhyuk! HE even acts like Eunhyuk!
Why does no one sees past my point! They must be blind!

One day! I swear! One day they'll regret hating on Zhoumi!

Zhoumi Hwaiting!

LOL now you guys are gonna ask me if I like Henry?
My answer to you is Yes. I like Henry. He is effing cute.
He reminds me of Donghae.. >___>;; xD;
You saw him!! he jumped like happiness after they performed on stage! <33 So Kawaii..

And I saw ZhouRy moments... I love those 2. To me, it's like Young EunHae all over again.
Why won't people see this? xD;; OMG I must convert people haha.

Anyways... I don't think I have anything else to say.. D:
LOL but I'm definitely making that ZhouRy moment cut! MUAHHAH <33

Note:
Zhoumi is older than Fishy Oppa?!
lol omg no way xD;; and lols Henry is younger than me by 3 weeks.
haha! LIBRA HWAITING XD;;; *shot*

2008-04-12T04:11:00.004-05:00

I'm sad T____T and heart broken!
I got into an argument! Why is my life so gloomy? Yet I tell myself I'm happy go lucky *sighs*
Well, it's okay... If that's what it means being a human, well. I might as well live with it...

Don't you just hate it when you can't talk back? I do...

Like this inner self is wanting to explode...
But you keep it in, because... I don't know... Because it's hard to explain to that person you love and cherish?
Why does that person makes it so hard to explain... All these question!! So Demanding!
I'm too happy go lucky to answer them all in I'm shot! I'm not a serious person!

Why do people treat me like one! T___T

I feel like no one likes me. Like I'm being blocked... Okay, I admit... I'm insecure right now...
Really... I am... god! why am I so sensitive?! T___T

So sensitive that I get jealous just by getting comments from people telling me they know how I feel!

I hate sympathizers! They don't understand! I don't believe in empathizers either! What are the chances you will meet someone who knows how you feel?! 1%!!

I hate it... they always drag me in.. and then they drag the people around me in... and the people around me gets mad! But why is it that I feel that everyone hates me? I didn't do anything wrong so why?

Sheesh look at the time! it's 4:20 am in the morning T____T!!!

I wish I can end my life in a sec! But the other stupid part of me tells me that if I die, people will get mad at me for dieing! How in the world can I make everyone happy! I'm not a happy machine!

So gloomy... So gloomy... it's snowing again... and.. it's suppose to be almost summer...

P.S

Fishy heard my prayers? lols... Well the other night I was complaining how only hyukkie and leeteuk comes to my dreams only... They visit me to most compare to other suju members! Kibum comes often too! But he only come and gives me bad dreams.. LOL like I hate him the more I dream about him! haha! Bummie! You know I hate you! And I hope I come to your dreams and taunt you too! <3

But today Fishy came to my dreams<3 He came for my highschool graduation! <3 lol although I already graduated from highschool.. haha... Thank You Fishy! Thank You for coming to my graduation in my dream!

2008-04-11T02:31:00.000-05:00

YAY! I finally customized mine! <33>.>; xD
Well, it's almost 2 in themorning... like in 2 minutes... I'm off now...

lol to bed? tsk tsk tsk. No silly... Off to practice singing <3>
eunhae hwaiting!

P.S ZhouRy [zhoumi/henry] to me is like the younger version of Eunhae <33

2008-04-10T19:49:00.000-05:00

D: it's snowing again?!! Why?! T_____T
I was looking so much for the spring and summer weather to come in!
Oh well....
I hope this bad weather go away soon!

2008-04-08T01:47:00.000-05:00

Dang! I still haven't given myself a customized page yet... Haha! I'm a sore loser...
Ahh well. Anywhos... OMG! I updated! I'm so not into these blog thingies...
Maybe I should only update excited things! errg... Suju dreams..

OMG I like have then everyday now... something must be wrong with me T__T
Lols what do you think people will say at SJ*FH? 8D!! I bet nothing T.T

I bet they would just shoo me off, and tell me I'm lucky... PSSsh W/E

Kays anway... OH! I know... um... I'll... uh... well.. post whenever I have a suju dream! YEAH! <3 okays byes!