Silk Cloth + The Snow

I'm sad T____T and heart broken!
I got into an argument! Why is my life so gloomy? Yet I tell myself I'm happy go lucky *sighs*
Well, it's okay... If that's what it means being a human, well. I might as well live with it...

Don't you just hate it when you can't talk back? I do...

Like this inner self is wanting to explode...
But you keep it in, because... I don't know... Because it's hard to explain to that person you love and cherish?
Why does that person makes it so hard to explain... All these question!! So Demanding!
I'm too happy go lucky to answer them all in I'm shot! I'm not a serious person!

Why do people treat me like one! T___T

I feel like no one likes me. Like I'm being blocked... Okay, I admit... I'm insecure right now...
Really... I am... god! why am I so sensitive?! T___T

So sensitive that I get jealous just by getting comments from people telling me they know how I feel!

I hate sympathizers! They don't understand! I don't believe in empathizers either! What are the chances you will meet someone who knows how you feel?! 1%!!

I hate it... they always drag me in.. and then they drag the people around me in... and the people around me gets mad! But why is it that I feel that everyone hates me? I didn't do anything wrong so why?

Sheesh look at the time! it's 4:20 am in the morning T____T!!!

I wish I can end my life in a sec! But the other stupid part of me tells me that if I die, people will get mad at me for dieing! How in the world can I make everyone happy! I'm not a happy machine!

So gloomy... So gloomy... it's snowing again... and.. it's suppose to be almost summer...

P.S

Fishy heard my prayers? lols... Well the other night I was complaining how only hyukkie and leeteuk comes to my dreams only... They visit me to most compare to other suju members! Kibum comes often too! But he only come and gives me bad dreams.. LOL like I hate him the more I dream about him! haha! Bummie! You know I hate you! And I hope I come to your dreams and taunt you too! <3

But today Fishy came to my dreams<3 He came for my highschool graduation! <3 lol although I already graduated from highschool.. haha... Thank You Fishy! Thank You for coming to my graduation in my dream!